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There's no sense in regretting what's been said in our yesterdays
We can't take back what's done
But We can look ahead
And I would walk so much further just to know what I'm doing here
And there's no end to what I'd give to know just what you meant when you said
How can I feel alive when we can't help but break our backs just to survive?
Is this another time we can't control our lives?

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

The self-discipline to go to the gym on Friday night when everyone else is going out to the club or a party.

The self-discipline to eat our next meal when we really don’t want it, or to not eat extra food when we really do want it.

We have to say, “I’m going to win that show, so even though I feel tired and hungry, I’m only going to eat the 4 oz. potato that’s on my diet plan.” We have to live like this year round to improve.

I can’t just train for three months to do a show and take the rest of the year off. This is why most people could never do what we do. Most people don’t have the discipline that we have.

Day #8 of anabolic matrix.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Monday, June 22, 2009

Friday, June 19, 2009

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Sunday, May 31, 2009

It's been a rather fulfilling three weeks. 2 weeks in perth, visiting the universities in western australia. Got down to ICP Centre @ orange grove and enquired about studying in Australia. With an average gpa, i could only apply for a couple of universities. I went to the Australian Uni seminar last afternoon, and had a chat with the Curtin Uni representative, analysing my transcript.

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences. I've been unable to sleep and usually getting up thinking of my future. Sometimes thoughts like that scares you. One does not know what to expect in the future, however a well-planned career path could put you into something more organised and prepared for the unexpected. It's good that we jot down on a piece of paper, and draw a timeline of your life. We must treassure every single minute of this part of our life, not put it into waste. Save the money and not splurge, invest it into something of worth.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

From your words, I can tell you’ve lost a reason, the will to carry on. No chance that we will make it, you’ve faked it for so long. But I’m standing here before for you, as your barely holding on. And I’m writing just to show you, there's strength in who you are. We live and we fall. But I'll try to move on. It’s so hard to be the one left on my own. We live and we fall. But I’ll keep moving on. It’s so hard to be the one left on my own.

From the night, I can faintly here you breathing. I know that you’re around. I can feel your arms around me. I'll take the water down. But I’m standing here before you as your deep within this ground. And I’m trying just to show you, that in me you can be found.

You mean more to me now it’s gone forever I won’t forget. I’ll make things better, with you I'm more then I will ever be. You were there when I looked for you to guide me, through all the times that I spent feeling. Sure of a sense that you were there for me

Monday, April 27, 2009

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Friday, April 24, 2009

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Bringing myself down to a level, apologizing to you even tho it isn't my fault at all, unable to sleep, trying to save this friendship, and you can just say that take it as we didn't know each other. I do not want to point finger and put the blame on anyone. Go and fuck yourself and think carefully, who the fuck is at wrong.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

I've never expected things in return, when something is done for the person. However, at least your presence is appreciated. Walking in the hot sun, sun burnt, lusting an injury walking to and fro, isn't a joke, but i did it. You couldn't even appreciate, spending the night with us. It's terribly disturbing/hurtful, but nevertheless... If that's the way you are, I'm good with it cuz people are made up differently. If everyone's like you, there won't be someone special.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Sunday, April 05, 2009

i was invited back into the National mens team. And we had our first test match yesterday. Singapore vs Guiness Select. We won 24-7. However I played only till half time. I had a hard knock about 15 minutes into the game. And had to last the other 25 minutes injured.

I was buried under 6 fully grown english rugby men. I heard my chest cracked a few times, I thought something really bad was going to happen to me. There was a small area of depression on my chest. The game moved on, and i layed motionlessly on the pitch. Physios and a doctor attended to me... The night was hell, I had problem getting out of bed, problems breathing, and couldnt lift my arm up.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Friday, March 13, 2009

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Monday, March 02, 2009

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Monday, February 23, 2009

I have a punishing workout regimen. Every day I do 30 minutes on a treadmill, then I lie down, drink a glass of vodka and smoke a cigarette. Tasteless going down, but it is memorable coming up.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Friday, February 13, 2009

Friday the 13th. Finally projects have ended, last day of sch too. Just 2 more exam papers! Bought a twin cable adapter, connected it to my creative sound blaster external sound card, combined my 5.1 creative sound system with surround, together with 2.1 edifier system. FUCKING 7.1 speaker, 2 super woofers. SOUND IS AMAZING !@(@)()*#&(*@

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Thursday, January 22, 2009

past memories

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Friday, January 16, 2009

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Bad day. I left my project report at home when i got on the bus. Had to go back home, then cab to school this morning. And when i reached school, class was cancelled. Waited for an hour before the next lecture, then the lecturer said tat no teaching today, there wasn't a single soul in the theatre. Was fed up cabbed back home. Just came back from rugby match. Played like shit, luckily ended on a high, a win. Sigh.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Thursday, January 01, 2009

We suffer through each new year, with guilt and unanswered questions. A part of me still insists on certain things that I couldn't let go. These should be secondary and concentrate on a role of being a good son with a bright future paved by my good family. Even tho I couldn't make it back on time to be with my family for the countdown, I was on the other hand with my close friends, actually knowing each other deeper and spending some time remonising the good times we had in youngers days, and also a good form of procrastination indeed; "how we drove the ATV in canada, holding back the shotgun at the kangaroos or while playing golf, a ball killed a kangaroo", and also to got to know of life stories which one of it was a friend whom died right infront of his eyes who was beyond recognition.

I hear from my friends to lose weight, stop smoking, and be better organized. My problems aren't specific, but at this point of time, do what is right! Many things happened this year which have helped me to be a better person and to have more compassion. I'll continue to do what i can to help others suffering elsewhere. Another thing that I can proudly say was shedding the pounds lol. Exercising creates endorphins in your brain to make you feel less lethargic. Since April 24th 2008, I lost a total of 46.3 lbs in 3 months. Amazing yes i know, and now it's easier to buy clothes. You've got to get up every morning with determination if you're going to go to bed with satisfaction.


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Friday, September 18, 2009 Yay ! Got posted to the Air Force School as Air Operational Specialist. Sunday, July 19, 2009 Wednesday, July 15, 2009 DJ Inqusitive and Implants!! Friday, July 10, 2009 If you want to complain about me, go ahead and tell me. But if you do not want to leave your unit number down, then FUCK OFF. Friday, July 03, 2009 There's no sense in regretting what's been said in our yesterdays We can't take back what's done But We can look ahead And I would walk so much further just to know what I'm doing here And there's no end to what I'd give to know just what you meant when you said How can I feel alive when we can't help but break our backs just to survive? Is this another time we can't control our lives? Wednesday, July 01, 2009 The self-discipline to go to the gym on Friday night when everyone else is going out to the club or a party. The self-discipline to eat our next meal when we really don’t want it, or to not eat extra food when we really do want it. We have to say, “I’m going to win that show, so even though I feel tired and hungry, I’m only going to eat the 4 oz. potato that’s on my diet plan.” We have to live like this year round to improve. I can’t just train for three months to do a show and take the rest of the year off. This is why most people could never do what we do. Most people don’t have the discipline that we have. Day #8 of anabolic matrix. Saturday, June 27, 2009 Monday, June 22, 2009 NO more soft drinks NO more fried food NO more gravy NO more supper NO more late night SLEEP EARLY, TRAIN HARD, EAT CLEAN. ANABOLIC MATRIX, SEE U IN 1 month. Friday, June 19, 2009 WHAT'S GOING ON? Saturday, June 13, 2009 Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street So I'm not moving, I'm not moving Tuesday, June 02, 2009 Sunday, May 31, 2009 It's been a rather fulfilling three weeks. 2 weeks in perth, visiting the universities in western australia. Got down to ICP Centre @ orange grove and enquired about studying in Australia. With an average gpa, i could only apply for a couple of universities. I went to the Australian Uni seminar last afternoon, and had a chat with the Curtin Uni representative, analysing my transcript. Which uni to go to? Curtin Uni or Edith Cowan Uni or Uni Queensland or SIM ?? What do i really want to be? What do i like doing, or not do something i do not enjoy? What job prospect will i have if i've taken up this course? Tourism and hospitality management or Mechanical Engineering or Aviation/Aerospace? Service sector or Pilot or Mechanic? The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences. I've been unable to sleep and usually getting up thinking of my future. Sometimes thoughts like that scares you. One does not know what to expect in the future, however a well-planned career path could put you into something more organised and prepared for the unexpected. It's good that we jot down on a piece of paper, and draw a timeline of your life. We must treassure every single minute of this part of our life, not put it into waste. Save the money and not splurge, invest it into something of worth. If you want to get somewhere you have to know where you want to go and how to get there. Then never, never, never give up. JOB INTERVIEW TMRRRR Saturday, May 30, 2009 Tuesday, May 05, 2009 From your words, I can tell you’ve lost a reason, the will to carry on. No chance that we will make it, you’ve faked it for so long. But I’m standing here before for you, as your barely holding on. And I’m writing just to show you, there's strength in who you are. We live and we fall. But I'll try to move on. It’s so hard to be the one left on my own. We live and we fall. But I’ll keep moving on. It’s so hard to be the one left on my own. From the night, I can faintly here you breathing. I know that you’re around. I can feel your arms around me. I'll take the water down. But I’m standing here before you as your deep within this ground. And I’m trying just to show you, that in me you can be found. You mean more to me now it’s gone forever I won’t forget. I’ll make things better, with you I'm more then I will ever be. You were there when I looked for you to guide me, through all the times that I spent feeling. Sure of a sense that you were there for me Monday, April 27, 2009 great dinner at shangri la Sunday, April 26, 2009 Will be heading over to indonesia and then perth next month... Saturday, April 25, 2009 Save the children Friday, April 24, 2009 I'm utterly dissapointed Thursday, April 23, 2009 Bringing myself down to a level, apologizing to you even tho it isn't my fault at all, unable to sleep, trying to save this friendship, and you can just say that take it as we didn't know each other. I do not want to point finger and put the blame on anyone. Go and fuck yourself and think carefully, who the fuck is at wrong. Be a man, learn to admit it. Wednesday, April 22, 2009 I've never expected things in return, when something is done for the person. However, at least your presence is appreciated. Walking in the hot sun, sun burnt, lusting an injury walking to and fro, isn't a joke, but i did it. You couldn't even appreciate, spending the night with us. It's terribly disturbing/hurtful, but nevertheless... If that's the way you are, I'm good with it cuz people are made up differently. If everyone's like you, there won't be someone special. Friday, April 10, 2009 unable to gym, train, anything. rib ligament and shoulder injury. painnnn my body is failing. is it time to stop? Tuesday, April 07, 2009 Sunday, April 05, 2009 i was invited back into the National mens team. And we had our first test match yesterday. Singapore vs Guiness Select. We won 24-7. However I played only till half time. I had a hard knock about 15 minutes into the game. And had to last the other 25 minutes injured. I was buried under 6 fully grown english rugby men. I heard my chest cracked a few times, I thought something really bad was going to happen to me. There was a small area of depression on my chest. The game moved on, and i layed motionlessly on the pitch. Physios and a doctor attended to me... The night was hell, I had problem getting out of bed, problems breathing, and couldnt lift my arm up. I went to raffles hospital for x-ray and the doctor said " It's a misalignment of the ribs ligament at the chest area, REST TO RECOVER." A sigh of relief, tressure ur life, family and ur friends, cuz anything could happen, and i thank god for being there. Monday, March 30, 2009 The best way to keep your friends is not to give them away. Think about it cuz it isn't my fault. Friday, March 13, 2009 bigben leaves for jungle trekking in malaysia... Wednesday, March 04, 2009 Party's over, but the music and the taste of vodka still lingers in me... Thanks to all that came down. Monday, March 02, 2009 Sunday, March 01, 2009 Cousin's wedding at Swiss 'O' Tel. Monday, February 23, 2009 I have a punishing workout regimen. Every day I do 30 minutes on a treadmill, then I lie down, drink a glass of vodka and smoke a cigarette. Tasteless going down, but it is memorable coming up. Monday, February 16, 2009 Friday, February 13, 2009 Friday the 13th. Finally projects have ended, last day of sch too. Just 2 more exam papers! Bought a twin cable adapter, connected it to my creative sound blaster external sound card, combined my 5.1 creative sound system with surround, together with 2.1 edifier system. FUCKING 7.1 speaker, 2 super woofers. SOUND IS AMAZING !@(@)()#&(@ BIGBEN SAYS March 2nd 2009 COLLEGE HOUSE ABSOLUT PARTY is gonna rawk like hell. DJ Ben. TRANCE TECHNO TECKTONIK. 12 bottles of Vodka, Wolfschmidt, 2 bottle Southern comfort, 12 bottles of red wine (herbal tea), 30 bottles of mixer 30 cans of beer LOADS OF SNACKS. Partaeee to the absolut. IMPACT!!! Sunday, February 08, 2009 Saturday, February 07, 2009 It'll take pain and perseverence. The clean diet starts again. Tuesday, February 03, 2009 finally got the album Ministry of Sound The Annual 2009 Sunday, February 01, 2009 anxious, pissed and pain Wednesday, January 28, 2009 Thursday, January 22, 2009 past memories Sunday, January 18, 2009 And I'll be your cryin' shoulder Friday, January 16, 2009 rare meet up with sis and mum after school... katong. Sunday, January 11, 2009 Saturday, January 10, 2009 All I want is to be just friends Understand, and don't hate her Feelings change, no strength in me I'm sorry, my love for you is gone so please don't hate me reminds me of sec school days. Say it isn't so How she easily come, how she easy go Please don't tell her that I've been meaning to miss her. Because I don't. I am only trying to be the best with my intent to cure The rest is sure to lay me ease the plural hurts of the words of reverse psychology That's easier said Easier than done Please don't dare tell her what I've become Please don't mention all the attention I have drawn Please don't bother cause she'll feel guilty when I'm gone Bad day. I left my project report at home when i got on the bus. Had to go back home, then cab to school this morning. And when i reached school, class was cancelled. Waited for an hour before the next lecture, then the lecturer said tat no teaching today, there wasn't a single soul in the theatre. Was fed up cabbed back home. Just came back from rugby match. Played like shit, luckily ended on a high, a win. Sigh. Friday, January 09, 2009 what's wrong with me today? i kept speeding... almost caused 2 accidents. regret. fuck. Sunday, January 04, 2009 Saturday, January 03, 2009 Best dim sum ever @ The Pines country club. Saturday special at half price. Haha ho sek ah =) Thursday, January 01, 2009 We suffer through each new year, with guilt and unanswered questions. A part of me still insists on certain things that I couldn't let go. These should be secondary and concentrate on a role of being a good son with a bright future paved by my good family. Even tho I couldn't make it back on time to be with my family for the countdown, I was on the other hand with my close friends, actually knowing each other deeper and spending some time remonising the good times we had in youngers days, and also a good form of procrastination indeed; "how we drove the ATV in canada, holding back the shotgun at the kangaroos or while playing golf, a ball killed a kangaroo", and also to got to know of life stories which one of it was a friend whom died right infront of his eyes who was beyond recognition. I hear from my friends to lose weight, stop smoking, and be better organized. My problems aren't specific, but at this point of time, do what is right! Many things happened this year which have helped me to be a better person and to have more compassion. I'll continue to do what i can to help others suffering elsewhere. Another thing that I can proudly say was shedding the pounds lol. Exercising creates endorphins in your brain to make you feel less lethargic. Since April 24th 2008, I lost a total of 46.3 lbs in 3 months. Amazing yes i know, and now it's easier to buy clothes. You've got to get up every morning with determination if you're going to go to bed with satisfaction. The age 20, positively, I'm glad i've matured to this age, so homies, grow up!! Hahaha JK. 1 month left to graduation, looking forward to the possible trip to Perth and Phuket =) Life goes on and just remember this, *"Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain."* God bless and i love you. drunk fuck face. haha
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